have you ever lived your dream?

[Beautiful~Mistake]

set a goal
something to aspire towards
that would make your entire existance
seem worthwhile?

i've always dreamed of putting on an art show..
this wednesday, people
my first ever art show
holy fucking hell
i'm so nervous....

i've never held an opening before..
i didn't know so much work was involved *L
but this is a blast!

posters
and musicians
and events
and coordinating
and wow...
i just can't believe this is happening to me...

it's like..
i'm so fuckin happy i could cry

after wednesday,
i can die happily..
*L

am i going to wake up next week and realize this is all a big dream?

[SummerStorm]

awwww Paigeeeeeeeeeeee i'm sooooo happy for you*huge ass hugs*

[Father Dave]

i can only hope that this ending of a dream is the beginning of a reality-
push to stay ahead of that dream,
to find motivation in tomorrow
and a pallet of colors in your
mind that flows to your fingers.

one day at a time...one work at a time...
one dream come true at a time.

your strength is in your yesterday.
and your yesterday gave you strength
to face today.

today is yours to do as you will.


i bid you peace.

dave

<font color="#FF9900" size="1">[ January 31, 2005 02:21 AM: Message edited by: Father Dave ]</font>

[Canadian Chick]

Congratulations Paige..You're gonna do great..I have complete faith in you [img]smile.gif[/img] [img]graemlins/heart.gif[/img]
*Hugs you so tight*

<font color="#FF9900" size="1">[ February 01, 2005 02:09 AM: Message edited by: Far From Perfect ]</font>

[Beautiful~Mistake]

yeah..
it started off, good..
tonight's the night
i managed to score the day off work so i could spend it gettin ready
it wasbald man was gonna come over for dinner
and give me a lil..
motivaion
*L pep talk
then he showed up and said he can't make it...
my musician is sick..
and personally
i don't want to do it now
but i have to..
i have so many people comin to see it.
...kinda scary
but i guess it helped me get into the headspace i need to be in right now
so that's alright
just disappointed
and it hasn't even started..

do you ever go through this?
i mean..
do the nerves ever take you to the point
where there's just no feeling?
is this supposed to be humbling?
*L running on a flatline so i don't get my hopes up..

...
i'm all screwed up [img]confused.gif[/img]

[Beautiful~Mistake]

all in all it went alright..
it was a very humbling experience
but draining..
it took me 2 hours to get out of bed this morning *L

the bald man said he's not used to seein me not smile
so everybody thinks that there's something up..
but you know..
it's like i said before..
sometimes i think we could feel an emotion so strong
that we can't feel the entirety of it
because it would be too much..

there's nothing wrong with me
i'm just so overwhelmed right now that
if i show my joy
all i'll do is cry *L

i managed to touch somebody last night, though..
that was the best feeling ever..
seeing someone else crying
because they were so moved by something i did..

it was one of those moments..
where we were in a room full of people
but we were the only two that existed

[Canadianblueyes]

Congrats on the art show! I'm glad it went well.

[Carolina Sunshine]

....*group hug*

[Canadian Chick]

*just hugs my Paige* [img]graemlins/heart.gif[/img]

[Beautiful~Mistake]

haha.. thanks, guys!
i'm glad it went well, too..
i was a bundle of nerves that night..
a friend came to get me
and the guy would not shut up
the last thing i wanted to do was talk..
i had to tell him to just shut the hell up
before i got out n walked *L

one of my pieces has been selected
to be hung in an exhibit in the valley..
*jus beams...

on the other side of the spectrum...
my job thing is going very well..
we got my job description done up
and if we can get the funding here
i'll be launched into a position
as a counsellor for youth
i'm going to be working with kids
on topics from suicide to self esteem,
to drug and alcohol problems
and just helping them make healthy,
informed decisions...
i'll be getting together with other outreach workers,
as well as the mental health and addictions office here in the valley,
schools and other programs

.....and if that doesn't work out
i'm going to start as an apprentice under a red seal chef
and get some culinary arts goin under way here..

i can't believe the way things are working out for me..

i find myself sitting down and just bawling *L
wondering how i got to be in this place
doing these things
and like... wow..
i don't know, guys..
once again..
i really have to thank all my friends
for having faith in me when i didn't
... this is incredible..

see,
miracles do happen